I care to much about boyfriend. I feel like I love him and its breaking my heart. I am so afraid he won’t want me when realizes how fucked up I am. on top of that I had to deal with his drug friends. They make me so uncomfortable. I don’t know what he sees in me.
Sometimes I think I am doing okay. Then something small just puts me to square one. I end up in near tears searching for empty bathroom where I can slam head into the wall and punch a wall. While I am technically 22 I feel like I am a complete child who is constantly sucking in resources.